≋✺̱ Fungi Tings — Black Body, Gut, and Consciousness Field Notes
Fungi Tings
Black Body, Gut
and Consciousness
Field Notes
Sacred Boundary Statement
I want to be absolutely clear before you read any further.
This is my body, my lineage, my medicine, my relationship with fungi. What you are stepping into is not entertainment. It is not casual commentary. It is not a space for judgment, critique, or performative curiosity.
I have engaged with harm that most cannot see or understand. I have walked through cycles of colonial grooming, bodily trauma, and systemic disregard. My choices, my body, my practices—all of it—is sacred.
I am someone who needs to be protected.
Your discomfort, your assumptions, or your critiques will not be entertained here.
If you are ready to approach this with reverence, curiosity, and relational integrity, continue.
If not, step back.
The waters are deep.
This medicine is serious.
Entering The Waters
These waters are new, uncharted, and electric. Most of the site’s content—strain notes, recipes, field observations—are your docked boats. This page is the current, moving under the surface.
The Dream of Consciousness here is medicine for Black bodies. Anyone engaging the plant can access:
emotional recalibration
gut-brain communication
sensory and visual amplification
ancestral and communal connection
liberation praxis
I use a neurodivergent lens for safety, clarity, and protection—but the medicine itself benefits all Black bodies, not only neurodivergent ones.
The Beginning — Fear, Tears, and Radical Excavation
My first fungal sessions weren’t casual. Teaching Black Beauty School, traveling coast to coast, dosing in the car—truths too big for performative spaces.
Tears. Gut-level fear. Nervous system fluttering. Extended crying. Deep release.
The plant didn’t create fear. It revealed colonial residue, loops of grooming, cycles of harm, ancestral and systemic imprinting. Each session offered reset and recalibration, slowly showing me that activation ≠ trauma.
Gut First — Appendix Surgery as Final Seed Release
The gut was the first site of activation. Fungi’s work appeared through intense bowel responses, visceral nervous system sensations, and deep somatic awareness.
By summer 2025, I underwent emergency appendix surgery. This wasn’t just medical—it was symbolic. The appendix removal represented the final seed of conical harm and grooming leaving my body. Fungi had been preparing me, communicating internally, showing where old patterns needed release.
Along the way, I found relief with herbal and dietary supports:
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heartburn pills when necessary
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teas of nettle, marshmallow root, and slippery elm to support gut communication
Certain foods I had previously eaten became incompatible. That dissonance made no sense initially, but my body was rewriting its relationship with digestion, nourishment, and flow.
By the time my appendix came out, blood work revealed markers, but they were overlooked by the medical system—a reminder of the systemic ways Black bodies are constrained and surveilled in Western medicine.
Breath, Stretch, & Music — Early Somatic Healing
Before visuals, before fascia, before full network expansion, I started in the body:
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Breath Work
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I was holding, skipping, and shortening breaths.
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Six months to a year of practice taught full inhales and exhales, using breath as a tool for nervous system regulation.
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Stretch & Movement
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Muscular tension and stored trauma surfaced with fungi.
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Intentional stretching allowed fascia to release, align, and activate, echoing the plant’s internal communication.
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Music
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Psychedelic Black music playlists became somatic anchors.
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I played music on a JBL speaker, placing it on areas of tension to release pain through vibration, connecting body, nervous system, and ancestral memory.
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This triad—breath, movement, music—was the first real doorway into embodied healing with fungi.
Fascia — The Layer Fungi Mirrors
Fascia, the body’s connective web, holds tension, memory, trauma, and lineage. Fungi illuminates and activates fascia:
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highlights trapped energy
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amplifies subtle bodily signals
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creates a highway for nervous system recalibration
When paired with breath and music, fascia becomes a conduit for ancestral and somatic liberation, letting the body release patterns carried across generations.
Listening Beyond MTAs/MCAs
At first, I thought I was experiencing MCAS, MTAS, or histamine activation. Literature, social media, frameworks—everywhere.
But no.
My body was speaking its own language, one fungi helped me tune into.
Key lesson: true healing requires listening, not labeling. Social media, rigid frameworks, and reductive biomedical interpretations often trap Black bodies in cycles of collapse.
With fungi, I learned:
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how tension and pain communicate
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how fascia, gut, and nervous system interconnect
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how to distinguish fear, activation, and ancestral communication
This practice expands healing beyond limitation, connecting body, lineage, and liberation.
Visual Mind — Hyperphantasia Amplified
I’ve always seen internal colors, shapes, and patterns. Fungi expands that visual field, revealing geometry, fractals, energy flows, and symbolic landscapes.
Visuals aren’t just aesthetic—they’re maps for internal reorganization, linking memory, emotion, and lineage.
Colonial Fear vs Plant Activation
Old patterns and groomed identities can feel like fear. Fungi mirrors them, revealing where colonial conditioning still lives in the body.
Through relational practice, you learn to discern fear from activation, creating clarity and liberation.
Liberation Praxis
This medicine is personal and collective. It strengthens:
attention and perception
emotional intelligence
bodily sovereignty
ancestral connection
Consistent, relational engagement with fungi is liberation praxis, not trend-following or performative microdosing.
≋✺̱ On Microdosing Culture
≋✺̱ on micro dosing small dosing is where the relationship begins. not spectacle. not ego. not collapse. what you see pushed as “hero doses” is often rooted in dominance, not depth. too much, too fast, without the body’s consent without the nervous system’s capacity— that is not expansion. that is overwhelm.
the body needs time. time to listen. time to build. time to recognize what is changing. tolerance is not about chasing a higher dose. it is about building relationship so the body can sustain what is being opened. without that? you are not integrating. you are disrupting. and disruption, without grounding, does not lead to healing.
≋✺̱ On Healing vs Optimization
≋✺̱ on healing vs optimization fungi is not here to make you more productive. not sharper for the system. not optimized for output. that is colonial thinking. healing is not performance. it is not efficiency. it is not biohacking your way into acceptability. healing slows you down. breaks patterns. asks you to feel what you have avoided.
sometimes it makes you less functional inside systems that were never built for you. that is not failure. that is realignment. if your only goal is to return to the same system but better at surviving it — you have missed the work.
≋✺̱ On Set & Setting vs Relationship
≋✺̱ on set & setting you’ve been told set your intention. fix your environment. control the outcome. but fungi does not move through control. you can prepare the space. you can tend to the body. but what actually matters is the relationship you have built over time. relationship with the plant. relationship with your body.
relationship with what surfaces. without that, set and setting becomes performance. a curated container that still cannot hold what emerges. relationship is what allows you to stay. to listen. to not run when the body begins to speak.
≋✺̱ on misuse and the dominant culture
≋✺̱ on misuse this plant is being extended into dominant culture without accountability. used to refine hierarchy. to deepen control. to polish performance rooted in anti-blackness. that is not healing. that is extraction.
≋✺̱ on recreational use
≋✺̱ on recreational use fungi is being flattened into experience. a moment. a feeling. a temporary shift that asks nothing of the body once it passes. this is where the dishonesty lives. fungi is not an escape. you do not step in and return unchanged. without integration, without relationship, without a shift in how you move—it is not healing. it is interruption. and interruption, repeated, becomes distortion.
≋✺̱ on bad trips
≋✺̱ on “bad trips” there is no such thing as a bad trip. there is only resistance. what is often called “bad” is the moment the mind loses control and the body begins to surface what has been avoided. discomfort is not failure. looping is not failure. fear is not failure. it is entry.
this does not mean every strain aligns with your body. mismatch exists. capacity exists. and sometimes the body will say no. that is also information. but even then, the experience is not meaningless. it is communication. the question is not how to avoid it. the question is whether you can stay long enough to understand what is being revealed.
If You Are New Here
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This is serious medicine.
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The body, mind, gut, and fascia are communicating continuously.
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Observe: body sensations, breath, tension, emotional responses.
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Reflect. Journal. Move. Listen.
Boundaries: Judgment, casual commentary, or performative critique has no place here. This is relational practice, not entertainment.
Field Notes Prompt
Body: gut sensations, breathing, muscle tension or release
Mind: pattern recognition, memory surfacing, symbolic thinking
Emotion: grief, joy, curiosity, relief
Next Steps
Future pages (paywalled) will dive deeper into:
strain-specific experiences
visual and gut-brain mapping
cannabis + fungi foundations
somatic liberation practice
advanced network expansion
This page is the foundation, open to all, showing the waters before you swim.
