heart break hotel

huge huge shout out to Ron and Rebecca Curry for doing the bare minimum as parents when it came to my care. may your bodies and minds continue to crumble.

some one play Whitney's heartbreak hotel.

yesterday i had to undergo emergency surgery to have my appendix removed, I was back in the emergency room this AM because my heart beat is much, much lower than normal. i will have to visit a cardiologist this week.

when I was 27 I had to have a similar labroscopic procedure because of a stress blockage in my intestines. this is not normal for 27 years old. My parents heeded nothing about the warning call and the responsibility they played in full.

all of these procedures are connected to late diagnosis OCD and severe generalized anxiety the failing care of persons who have propped themselves up as being people they never were.

the appendix deals directly with hidden emotions and unresolved, it signifies attachments that need to be released or that have been left unreleased. well its gone now. but there is still work on my end that will have to be done to make sure that i release this lifetime of heartbreak that has been amplified in the last 5 years and specifically in the last year by Alexandra Yejin Lee Jeong and others.

while i just opened the online shop for bead and cowrie and was preparing to amp up for other projects, i am on full rest for the next 2 months and I will still have to figure out and work with my tender heart once I know what's what. I require your support.